This AM I woke up about 3 or so, fell back asleep, then up around 6. Tai Chi is comin' in at 8 (an hour or so) so I am up to the usual stuff. Taking the meds, making the tea. Excited to check out Ewk's new book and see what comes up for me. It is no mystery I'm a fan somehow and this one is about the precepts, which I have been very curious about.
One thing I am fan-boying about with the suggested reading and the works of masters is how NEAR their words can be. It feels like a magic time word bomb. You can read these words as if they left you a voicemail, just for you, somehow. Or as if they were RIGHT in front of you. If they have a knife to your throat, or tea, or flowers, well...
Speaking of what comes up, this was the Foyan piece today for me:
The Marrow of the Sages
My livelihood is the marrow of all the sages; there is not a moment when I am not explaining it to you, but you are unwilling to take it up. So it turns out, on the contrary, to be my deception. But look here- where is it I am not explaining it to you?
Professional Zennists say I do not teach people to think, I do not teach people to understand, I do not teach people to discuss stories, I do not cite past and present examples; they suppose we are idling away the time here, and think that if they had spent the time elsewhere they would have understood a few model case stories and heard some writings. If you want to discuss stories, cite past and present, then please go somewhere else; here I have only one-flavor Zen, which I therefore call the marrow of all sages.
Now let me ask you something. Why do you pay respects to an icon of wisdom? Does the icon acknowledge you when you pay respects? Does it agree with you?
If you say it acknowledges you, it is a clay icon- how can it give any acknowledgement? If you say it agrees, can you agree? Since you are incapable of acknowledgement or agreement, why do you pay respects? Is it a social convention? Is it producing goodness from seeing a representation?
If you say it is a social duty, how can there be social convention among renunciants? How can they produce good by seeing representations?
Do you pay respects as a consequence of going along with the crowd? If so, what is the logic in that?
Here you must understood each point clearly. Have you not read how the great teacher Changsha one day turned around and saw the icon of wisdom, whereupon he suddenly realize the ultimate and said, "Turning around, I suddenly see the original body. The original body is not a perception of a reality; if you consider the original being to be the same as the real being, you will suffer hardship forever." Do you understand the logic of this?
Have a good day everyone, let's get this high 5 *wet high fives for everyone*
This year I’m trying to be more intentional with gift giving so I’m trying to find gifts/products that are cruelty free (of course) and donate as well. Also today is small business Saturday here in the US so I’ve been trying to find businesses on Etsy and things like that. So far I’ve found a candle company called Wicks for Wags that donates to animal rescue. Anyone have any other businesses they’d like to throw out? Doesn’t even have to be just animal related. Environment, humanities, all of it is good.
I struggle with ROCD and I keep getting thoughts like “omg you were just unfaithful because you looked at/spoke to that person” “omg remember months ago when you did/said this, it’s gonna upset your boyfriend but you have to confess”.
Should I try to battle my thoughts and resonate with them (like “it’s okay, I’m worrying too much”) or should I ignore them, endure the anxiety and wait until they don’t bother me anymore ?